I'm one of those people that cant live,breath,walk right without their spouse. I think I covered this part however I'll go over it again, He's my life partner not my spouse because we never got officially married, and I don't just give the title husband away like I would boyfriend. Well most of my day is consumed by him. Checking facebook to see what hes doing, washing his clothes, washing his dishes.. etc. etc. At night is usually our time to watch TV together and umm cuddle and such activities that two grown people with a child do together. I mean of course sleep and drool on each other pillows LOL.
He got a new job.. At first this seemed like the best idea in the world! number one reason: because he hated his old job and it was super hard to live with the new grumpy man who took over the guy that I fell in love with. Number two reason: night shift sounded like the shift that would mean him coming home when I would leave for school so we would no longer need the baby sitter.
The part I forgot to put into the equation... I'm now alone in the house with my son and the cat. At NIGHT! what happened to the big strong man who was supposed to fight off the bad guys that break into the house. wheres the trigger happy dude that fights for lesser gun control so he can shoot the intruder that comes in for our TV. HE'S WORKING NIGHTS!!!!
so can I have harsher gun control?! HUH! Cant we get an alarm system for the house and not just the garage! NOW CAN WE HAVE A DOG?!
of course not...
Do you know what I have to do now?!
Pull up my big girl panties, get a good book and hunker down for the nights that follow. I know he thinks hes gonna be the only one missing out on sleep but thats totally not the case. I'm going to be up and listening for stray noises, I'm going to be freaking out about the sounds of the neighbors cats fighting outside my window. I have to keep the normality with our son and insist (even tho i'm scared) that he sleep in his room like normal. I have to be the new "Man of the House".
For women everywhere that do this on a normal basis I tip my hat to you
For women like me who are just now having to start this, know that I am with you now, we aren't alone anymore, we are together holding hands through the internet keeping each other company.
Don't worry Baby! I got this house, and our son!
Good night my fellow braves! See you in the morning when we wake up stronger women.
NikkiBrave
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