Damn it!

Alright alright... Its been a year again!
Worst Blog In the History OF the WORLD!

Sorry, LOL

Anyway we moved back to Sinton, Texas. We moved into my mother in laws again, Isn't that nice? L.P. is trying to buy a house right now and I can't help him. When we moved back in August, I worked for my mother in law for a little while at her Palateria. A palateria is a Ice pop shop... Kinda .. she made fruit cups, with a Mexican chili on top of the fruit. She made nachos, and sandwhiches, salads ... snack items I guess. My mother in law started getting sick from the stress, I guess and she had to close her shop. With my son in Pre-kay that put me at home everyday since then. Why didn't you blog Nik? Because we just got a new computer like a month ago and frankly I was depressed OK! The only reason I consented to moving back to Sinton was because I was gonna go to school and have a job. BUT when my mother in law closed her shop that was pretty much it for me. I wouldn't be able to get another job that would work with my school schedule my sons school schedule and if he would have been sick I could leave him in the back office while I worked. All that's gone now..

I'm currently trying to figure out if I should get a job or go back to school, at this point I cant do both. Not with keeks in school. One at a time. Right now L.P. seems stable enough were I can go back to school BUT hes trying to buy a house and I'm not sure if were gonna make it. I should just do it anyway and if we have issues I cant always put school on hold ... AGAIN.

Either way school wont start until August and its June .. that's two months of arguing about money with L.P. two months with a wedding, a baby shower, and a Quince to attend.. All of which I'm doing things in. Well not the wedding I just need to find a dress for that one. But the baby shower and the quince Ive got duties to attend to.

Ive put out applications to .. everywhere! I've seriously put out at least 7 a week for the last 4 or 5 weeks. Everyday I apply to something else. I got denied at walmart! How do you get denied at walmart! They told me I was over qualified... GREAT.

I just need money!

Anyway I'm gonna post soon about going to the gym on the 30th year of my life in a little bit. watch out for that.

Keep you heads up! I know I'm trying to!
Nik

Stop Hating on Yourself Your Making Yourself Look Crazy

I think I and some girls get to caught up with the "he loves me, he doesn't love me" game. Or the thought process where you tell yourself if I only do this (like lose 15 pounds) he'll love me more, in my case... if only I could catch a really big shark (or learn to drive this stupid car better)  ... he would love me more.... Chick! PLEASE if this dude doesn't love you right now right now, no matter how many fish or pounds you lose (or cars you strip gears on) it not gonna sway him. Luckily! If you would only love yourself and be happy with yourself it would make you more attractive.  More attractive than the 10 pounds, the catching of more fish, and buying of new cars. YOU set the tone dear. If you act like a bad ass who loves herself ... he's gonna see that and love that bad ass. Lol. More importantly the doing of things for yourself and not for him is better emotionally. So screw you mando! I'm losing weight for me! And catching sharks...ok wait let's be serious catching smaller yet still impressive fish because I WANT TO. (Look on the car thing I think I'm as good as I'm gonna get. You shoulda thought about that before you bought the damn thing. AND that's YOUR dream car not mine. PLUS! I'm really not that bad at driving it. You just wish you were married to the female Pastrana.  And guess what she doesn't exist and if she did she would want to be with him and probably an STI. You got a WRX mo fo... so you get a WRX wife. Bahahah ahahaha)


Moral of the very long story. LOVE yourself because he won't until you do. I didn't love me for a long time and I think my relationship suffered and for other strenuous reasons is still suffering but I'm working on it. Sometimes writing it out makes you see the light.

On the road again

My husband's work has him traveling a lot and sometimes we get to go with him since I'm at home with the baby all day we stay in a hotel while he's at work and walk around where ever we are. Sight see..  go to the movies. This week we are in San Antonio Texas. I'm on a limited budget but we'll see what we can get into this week. So far tonight we're waiting for hubs to wake up for a nap before we go to dinner. Yay! Dinner!

Nik

Can't knock me down today!

I woke up and exercised! It feels good! I'm starting to feel a burn that reminds me every second every day... every time I bend over, sit up, lay down.... breathe... that I'm loosing weight and getting toned. That's what keeps me going ... The burn!

It feels really good.

I had to get to this point though. I know a lot of times I've tried to workout or try to start a work out routine that I hated to feel that pain. I would quit because of it. I think I'm so tired of being fat that this pain is like refreshing me. Does that make sense? I put up skinny model girls on my phone desktop and lock screen to push myself. I don't want to be fat anymore I want to be sexy! And the burn is proof that I'm on my way there! TAKE THAT FAT!!! I'm on my way to be rid of you!

Nicole - party of one

I don't blog to get followers.

I don't blog to make money.

I don't blog for recognition.

I blog because... I want someone to talk to haha, I think it's weird to talk to myself so talking to total strangers and maybe not even that but blank Internet space makes me feel like I've gotten stuff off my chest. It makes me feel like there's a friend out there who doesn't like my husband more, or talks to me just because we're related to each other. I'm not a loner but sometimes it's hard to tell who's really listening, who doesn't care, or who's just going to retell my story to someone else with a terrible spin on it.

At least here ... I maybe can make people laugh. That's ok to laugh at me. Because it's funny.

I've been trying to loose weight for years. Really I've tried every diet. Every pill.
And if I can help someone choose the right diet for them. I really don't suggest the pills and there's a blog post about that here sonewhere. My blog is a don't do as I do. Do as I say type of thing. This time I think I have a good idea what to do to loose weight. When I get the proven results I'll post them. Until then.... just read and laugh at my failures haha! Because I'm laughing at myself too

Also I review products sent to me by Bzzagent.

Or places my hubby takes us.

Or if I hear really good music I'll post about it.

I post basically anything I would tell a friend about. Because really that's what I'm here for.  And If I have no listeners, readers, friends it's ok .... because it feels like I have some and really.... that's all that matters

Your friend
Nik

Changing my mind like I change like I change the channel

I want to loose weight I want to loose weight!

Earlier this month I decided to cut out bread and sugar and possibly pasta, but keep fruit in my life. Practically Atkins. So I was good for two weeks then my off weekend came and I was able to eat whatever I wanted. I noticed that when I got back to my apartment after my weekend off I was heavier than when I had started my diet. Stoopid! I bloat when I'm off my diet!!! Making it the worst diet ever.
I figured this was all for vacation in june, but in June I'm not going to want to be on a diet.... I'm on vacation I want to eat what I want.
In reality, it's not like I gorge and gorge on food. I've been consistently 165 pounds for the last year. I'm not FAT I'm chubby. Which means I'm eating ok right? OK ok so maybe stop drinking soda and eating candy every night before bed (HEY! don't judge me!) That will be th e eating right part and now I just have to exercise. Because really people it has to be a lifestyle change. A diet is only going to get you so far. Not to mention when you fall off its the worst and hardest to get back on. So this week I started. I'm not eating candy all the time or drinking soda all day anymore and I've added 30 minutes of exercise.  So we'll see how this goes for the next few weeks. I will still have time to change my habits and loose weight if this doesn't work before June haha.
Comment if you have a better idea on how to loose weight.

I want to be fit for the rest of my life not just in June .... I can't diet the whole rest of my life! I mean I want to live life ....

It's ok to start over. No you didn't just waste this whole month of your life(or however long you were dieting and it didn't work out for you). Your trying things out you have try things to see if it's going to work for you. Everyone's different.

Nik

I want to eat my lip gloss

I typed out a whole blog entry and lost it allllll waaaaa waaaaaaa waaaa

It was funny and charming

.....

LOOSE WEIGHT WITH ME
WE CAN DO IT

I'LL EXPLAIN how tomorrow when I regain composure. I'm too disappointed right now .

Haha

Nik